Almost the end of 2025

 2025 has been a rollercoaster of emotions for me. I know Allah promise something good after the trials and tribulations..and I guess I should be grateful for these trials that Allah has gifted so much for me and my family this year.

Oh, I haven't introduced Asmaa Najdah to you my dear blog. She's the apple of my eyes now. Her angelic yet cheeky smiles never fail to soothe my broken heart, my endless exhaustion. There are some internal conflicts that I need to resolve on my own (something that is caused by my own doings), and it drains me emotionally. I learn to have gaps with my colleagues and even sometimes with my own siblings for I fear that communicating with them would leave me heartbroken. It is suffocating, and lonely at times, but I believe it is for the better. 

And Allah has gifted me Asmaa, who turns 2 this year. Alhamdulillah that my pregnancy went well throughout 2023. I delivered her early, on my 37th weeks - a week after sending Wawan to PreGermany YTP Programme in GMI. The day I delivered her was actually a travelling day. We (DH,me, Wawan n Shakir) visited Yaya on the 12th and we stayed the night there. That morning, after having our breakfast in Raub, we travelled back to Selangor, and my husband stopped at Melawati Mall to buy some hostel stuffs for Wawan. I slept throughout the journey from Raub and the moment I stepped out of the car at Melawati Mall carpark, my water broke. We quickly went to Aurelius (luckily we're already in Selangor) to be admitted. My Gynae, Dr Azizah, said that we could try for normal delivery first, if the opening suffice, but we were already getting ready with c-sect delivery as well. For c-sect, I need to have that 8 hr gap after meal, so, the last meal was at 8, so the plan was to pun me in the operating theatre at 4pm. At 3pm, she checked for the opening but it was only 2cm and not progressing. So, c-sect it was. Alhamdulillah.

And apart from Asma..Allah has showered me with so many blessings.

One of them is Ecah managed to get her white coat. Yeay !!! Alhamdulillah. She cried as she had to do a viva on her Pharmacology paper, and on top of that having a slight misunderstanding with her pharmaco lecturer. But, Allah Maha Baik ... she got her white coat and now is doing her 1st year Clinical in Hospital Temerloh. Alhamdulillah.

Wawan, on the other hand, has flown to Coln Germany for his TELC C1 course and insyaAllah, will be pursuing a degree's programme there too. Allahumma barik 

 

And Yaya is blooming well in Semesta despite being a crybaby in the first 2 years. Now she is in Form 3 and Alhamdulillah, she got 1st place in her class during midterm exam and the 2nd place in the whole form. Alhamdulillah

And for Shakir, despite being an almost full-time gamer, he managed to get his 3rd ASHR (Advanced Student Honor Roll) certificate from Kumon. He could have done more if he lessens his screen time. But I must admit that I am at fault too for not being able to 'change' this habot while he was still small. But, I believe he will change one day. InsyaAllah and Alhamdulillah for his achievement.

Now that I have written the blessings - I am so embarrassed that I have been complaining Allah. Astaghfirullah .. have mercy on me ya Allah. Be grateful, be grateful and be grateful. Alwayss