Woohoo.. This is my 5th entry today!
Saja nak lepas tension, tak larat sehh nak study. Otak dh berkarat tahap maksimum dah nih. Dah tua-tua pun kena amik exam. Mana laa larat nak study sambil jaga 2 anak. Tula, dah elok2 keje engineer nk dekat 6 tahun dah, sibuk nak jadik cikgu plak. Tapi, demi suamiku dan anak-anakku yang terchenta, ku gagahkan jua.
So far, I think that my decision to quit my job and join KPLI is not regrettable. Tapi, tak tahulah bila start posting nanti. Takut jugak since the senior teachers that I met has been asking me questions like "Nape berenti keje dik? Kalau akak jadi adik, I wont quit my job". Biar betul... Takut betul masa tu. Bukan takut apa, takut menyesal jer. Tapi, nasib baik laa salah sorang guru pembimbing tu adalah cikgu KPLI yang quit her 7-years job. And, her advise to me is, kerja ni..kat mana-mana pun banyak kerja. Pressure kerja, kat mana-mana kerja pun ada pressure nya. So far, dia tak rasa pressure kerja cikgu lebih dari pressure kerja swasta tu. Yang penting, buat keje seikhlasnya untuk dapat rezeki yang berkat. Memanglaa ramai orang perceive that keje cikgu ni senang, sebab half day. Tapi, sebenarnya, banyak keje cikgu yang orang tak nampak. Bukan setakat mengajar jer.. banyak clerical works. Tapi, insyaAllah, bila tengok kejayaan anak-anak murid, rasa satisfied gile. Pastuh, pengalaman does play a very important role. Whereas, as an engineer, I dont see myself climbing the management tree within 5 years. Nak stay as an engineer yang kena turun site for the next 5 years, rasa mcm tak best jer. Lagipun, as a women/mother, I have a lot of constraint which enables my male competitors to be way ahead of me. Tak pegi commission site tengah-tengah malam, susah nak outstation (anak breastfeed), masa mengandung tak boleh panjat rooftop (eventho, I did panjat rooftop masa mengandungkan Syazwan), and etc.
Eh..melalut la pulak. Entah dapat ke tak jadik cikgu tah.. tak abis study pun lagi ni. Karang kalau kantoi exam karang.. naya jer. Jadik surirumah sepenuh masa plak.
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Heh..next time u HAVE to bring me, k? Bukan apa, I think its not worth it kalau duduk kat sana for less than 2 weeks. Mcm sekejap sgt jer. Dok kat kelantan seminggu pun tak cukup, inikan pulak dok sana sekejap. Tunggulah, next year ker..hehe
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